Trying to quit smoking…
I have decided (again) to quit smoking.
I’ve tried in the past with no success. This time I’m going cold turkey. I’ve tried drugs and patches in the past and they didn’t work. I figure I’ll have just as much of a chance at success by going cold turkey as I’ve had in the past with the “extras” and I won’t be shelling out the extra money. Money is a big motivator for me.
It all comes down to willpower. No matter what cessation process you try, you need the willpower. A pill or a patch is not going to give you that willpower. At least it didn’t give it to me.
Friday was supposed to be my quit date. I didn’t make it. Saturday I had ten. Sunday I smoked five. Today I went until 3 o’ clock before I had one. It was a full flavored. It made me extremely dizzy and i was afraid I was afraid I was going to throw up.
I hate throwing up.
I’m hoping I will remember that feeling the next time I get it in my head I can have “just one more” because that one more sure as hell wasn’t worth it.
I’m going to think my happy thoughts and think that I got so dizzy and so nauseated because by going seventeen hours without a cigarette, my body had already expelled many of the toxins from the cigarettes. My body wasn’t prepared for the onslaught.
I have always told myself that if I had it to do all over again, i would listen to my body when it reacted to those first few cigarettes…the dizziness, the nausea, the spinning. Well, here’s my chance to start over. I had a cigarette and my body didn’t like it.
It’s time to quit.
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August 27, 2008 at 8:11 pm
You can do it Susan! I know you can- you are one of the strongest people I know. I have faith in you.